tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.archive2013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Milly, Molly, Mandy.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comBloggertag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.layout2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Template: Milly, Molly, Mandy.<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8" ?> <!DOCTYPE html> <html b:version='2' class='v2' expr:dir='data:blog.languageDirection' xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml' xmlns:b='http://www.google.com/2005/gml/b' xmlns:data='http://www.google.com/2005/gml/data' xmlns:expr='http://www.google.com/2005/gml/expr'> <head> <b:if cond='data:blog.isMobile'> <meta content='width=device-width,initial-scale=1.0,minimum-scale=1.0,maximum-scale=1.0' name='viewport'/> <b:else/> <meta content='width=1100' name='viewport'/> </b:if> <b:include data='blog' name='all-head-content'/> <title><data:blog.pageTitle/></title> <b:skin><![CDATA[/* ----------------------------------------------- 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If the user is not using shrink to fit then we expand the header. --> <b:if cond='data:mobile'> <div id='header-inner'> <div class='titlewrapper' style='background: transparent'> <h1 class='title' style='background: transparent; border-width: 0px'> <b:include name='title'/> </h1> </div> <b:include name='description'/> </div> <b:else/> <div expr:style='&quot;background-image: url(\&quot;&quot; + data:sourceUrl + &quot;\&quot;); &quot; + &quot;background-position: &quot; + data:backgroundPositionStyleStr + &quot;; &quot; + data:widthStyleStr + &quot;min-height: &quot; + data:height + &quot;_height: &quot; + data:height + &quot;background-repeat: no-repeat; &quot;' id='header-inner'> <div class='titlewrapper' style='background: transparent'> <h1 class='title' style='background: transparent; border-width: 0px'> <b:include name='title'/> </h1> </div> <b:include name='description'/> </div> </b:if> <b:else/> <!--Show the image only--> <div id='header-inner'> <a expr:href='data:blog.homepageUrl' style='display: block'> <img expr:alt='data:title' expr:height='data:height' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_headerimg&quot;' expr:src='data:sourceUrl' expr:width='data:width' style='display: block'/> </a> <!--Show the description--> <b:if cond='data:imagePlacement == &quot;BEFORE_DESCRIPTION&quot;'> <b:include name='description'/> </b:if> </div> </b:if> <b:else/> <!--No header image --> <div id='header-inner'> <div class='titlewrapper'> <h1 class='title'> <b:include name='title'/> </h1> </div> <b:include name='description'/> </div> </b:if> </b:includable> <b:includable id='description'> <div class='descriptionwrapper'> <p class='description'><span><data:description/></span></p> </div> </b:includable> <b:includable id='title'> <b:if cond='data:blog.url == data:blog.homepageUrl'> <data:title/> <b:else/> <a expr:href='data:blog.homepageUrl'><data:title/></a> </b:if> </b:includable> </b:widget> </b:section> </div> </div> <div class='header-cap-bottom cap-bottom'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> </div> </header> <div class='tabs-outer'> <div class='tabs-cap-top cap-top'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> <div class='fauxborder-left tabs-fauxborder-left'> <div class='fauxborder-right tabs-fauxborder-right'/> <div class='region-inner tabs-inner'> <b:section class='tabs' id='crosscol' maxwidgets='1' showaddelement='yes'/> <b:section class='tabs' id='crosscol-overflow' showaddelement='no'/> </div> </div> <div class='tabs-cap-bottom cap-bottom'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> </div> <div class='main-outer'> <div class='main-cap-top cap-top'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> <div class='fauxborder-left main-fauxborder-left'> <div class='fauxborder-right main-fauxborder-right'/> <div class='region-inner main-inner'> <div class='columns fauxcolumns'> <div class='fauxcolumn-outer fauxcolumn-center-outer'> <div class='cap-top'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> <div class='fauxborder-left'> <div class='fauxborder-right'/> <div class='fauxcolumn-inner'> </div> </div> <div class='cap-bottom'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> </div> <div class='fauxcolumn-outer fauxcolumn-left-outer'> <div class='cap-top'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> <div class='fauxborder-left'> <div class='fauxborder-right'/> <div class='fauxcolumn-inner'> </div> </div> <div class='cap-bottom'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> </div> <div class='fauxcolumn-outer fauxcolumn-right-outer'> <div class='cap-top'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> <div class='fauxborder-left'> <div class='fauxborder-right'/> <div class='fauxcolumn-inner'> </div> </div> <div class='cap-bottom'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> </div> <!-- corrects IE6 width calculation --> <div class='columns-inner'> <div class='column-center-outer'> <div class='column-center-inner'> <b:section class='main' id='main' showaddelement='no'> <b:widget id='Blog1' locked='true' title='Blog Posts' type='Blog'> <b:includable id='main' var='top'> <b:if cond='data:mobile == &quot;false&quot;'> <!-- posts --> <div class='blog-posts hfeed'> <b:include data='top' name='status-message'/> <data:defaultAdStart/> <b:loop values='data:posts' var='post'> <b:if cond='data:post.isDateStart'> <b:if cond='data:post.isFirstPost == &quot;false&quot;'> &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/div&gt; </b:if> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:post.isDateStart'> &lt;div class=&quot;date-outer&quot;&gt; </b:if> <b:if cond='data:post.dateHeader'> <h2 class='date-header'><span><data:post.dateHeader/></span></h2> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:post.isDateStart'> &lt;div class=&quot;date-posts&quot;&gt; </b:if> <div class='post-outer'> <b:include data='post' name='post'/> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == &quot;static_page&quot;'> <b:include data='post' name='comment_picker'/> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == &quot;item&quot;'> <b:include data='post' name='comment_picker'/> </b:if> </div> <b:if cond='data:post.includeAd'> <b:if cond='data:post.isFirstPost'> <data:defaultAdEnd/> <b:else/> <data:adEnd/> </b:if> <div class='inline-ad'> <data:adCode/> </div> <data:adStart/> </b:if> </b:loop> <b:if cond='data:numPosts != 0'> &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/div&gt; </b:if> <data:adEnd/> </div> <!-- navigation --> <b:include name='nextprev'/> <!-- feed links --> <b:include name='feedLinks'/> <b:if cond='data:top.showStars'> <script src='//www.google.com/jsapi' type='text/javascript'/> <script type='text/javascript'> google.load(&quot;annotations&quot;, &quot;1&quot;, {&quot;locale&quot;: &quot;<data:top.languageCode/>&quot;}); function initialize() { google.annotations.setApplicationId(<data:top.blogspotReviews/>); google.annotations.createAll(); google.annotations.fetch(); } google.setOnLoadCallback(initialize); </script> </b:if> <b:else/> <b:include name='mobile-main'/> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:top.showDummy'> <data:top.dummyBootstrap/> </b:if> </b:includable> <b:includable id='backlinkDeleteIcon' var='backlink'> <span expr:class='&quot;item-control &quot; + data:backlink.adminClass'> <a expr:href='data:backlink.deleteUrl' expr:title='data:top.deleteBacklinkMsg'> <img src='//www.blogger.com/img/icon_delete13.gif'/> </a> </span> </b:includable> <b:includable id='backlinks' var='post'> <a name='links'/><h4><data:post.backlinksLabel/></h4> <b:if cond='data:post.numBacklinks != 0'> <dl class='comments-block' id='comments-block'> <b:loop values='data:post.backlinks' var='backlink'> <div class='collapsed-backlink backlink-control'> <dt class='comment-title'> <span class='backlink-toggle-zippy'>&#160;</span> <a expr:href='data:backlink.url' rel='nofollow'><data:backlink.title/></a> <b:include data='backlink' name='backlinkDeleteIcon'/> </dt> <dd class='comment-body collapseable'> <data:backlink.snippet/> </dd> <dd class='comment-footer collapseable'> <span class='comment-author'><data:post.authorLabel/> <data:backlink.author/></span> <span class='comment-timestamp'><data:post.timestampLabel/> <data:backlink.timestamp/></span> </dd> </div> </b:loop> </dl> </b:if> <p class='comment-footer'> <a class='comment-link' expr:href='data:post.createLinkUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_backlinks-create-link&quot;' target='_blank'><data:post.createLinkLabel/></a> </p> </b:includable> <b:includable id='comment-form' var='post'> <div class='comment-form'> <a name='comment-form'/> <b:if cond='data:mobile'> <h4 id='comment-post-message'> <a expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_comment-editor-toggle-link&quot;' href='javascript:void(0)'><data:postCommentMsg/></a></h4> <p><data:blogCommentMessage/></p> <data:blogTeamBlogMessage/> <a expr:href='data:post.commentFormIframeSrc' id='comment-editor-src'/> <iframe allowtransparency='true' class='blogger-iframe-colorize blogger-comment-from-post' frameborder='0' height='410' id='comment-editor' name='comment-editor' src='' style='display: none' width='100%'/> <b:else/> <h4 id='comment-post-message'><data:postCommentMsg/></h4> <p><data:blogCommentMessage/></p> <data:blogTeamBlogMessage/> <a expr:href='data:post.commentFormIframeSrc' id='comment-editor-src'/> <iframe allowtransparency='true' class='blogger-iframe-colorize blogger-comment-from-post' frameborder='0' height='410' id='comment-editor' name='comment-editor' src='' width='100%'/> </b:if> <data:post.friendConnectJs/> <data:post.cmtfpIframe/> <script type='text/javascript'> BLOG_CMT_createIframe(&#39;<data:post.appRpcRelayPath/>&#39;, &#39;<data:post.communityId/>&#39;); </script> </div> </b:includable> <b:includable id='commentDeleteIcon' var='comment'> <span expr:class='&quot;item-control &quot; + data:comment.adminClass'> <b:if cond='data:showCmtPopup'> <div class='goog-toggle-button'> <div class='goog-inline-block comment-action-icon'/> </div> <b:else/> <a class='comment-delete' expr:href='data:comment.deleteUrl' expr:title='data:top.deleteCommentMsg'> <img src='//www.blogger.com/img/icon_delete13.gif'/> </a> </b:if> </span> </b:includable> <b:includable id='comment_count_picker' var='post'> <b:if cond='data:post.commentSource == 1'> <span class='cmt_count_iframe_holder' expr:data-count='data:post.numComments' expr:data-onclick='data:post.addCommentOnclick' expr:data-post-url='data:post.url' expr:data-url='data:post.canonicalUrl'> </span> <b:else/> <a class='comment-link' expr:href='data:post.addCommentUrl' expr:onclick='data:post.addCommentOnclick'> <data:post.commentLabelFull/>: </a> </b:if> </b:includable> <b:includable id='comment_picker' var='post'> <b:if cond='data:post.commentSource == 1'> <b:include data='post' name='iframe_comments'/> <b:else/> <b:if cond='data:post.showThreadedComments'> <b:include data='post' name='threaded_comments'/> <b:else/> <b:include data='post' name='comments'/> </b:if> </b:if> </b:includable> <b:includable id='comments' var='post'> <div class='comments' id='comments'> <a name='comments'/> <b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'> <h4><data:post.commentLabelFull/>:</h4> <b:if cond='data:post.commentPagingRequired'> <span class='paging-control-container'> <b:if cond='data:post.hasOlderLinks'> <a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.oldestLinkUrl'><data:post.oldestLinkText/></a> &#160; <a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.olderLinkUrl'><data:post.olderLinkText/></a> &#160; </b:if> <data:post.commentRangeText/> <b:if cond='data:post.hasNewerLinks'> &#160; <a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newerLinkUrl'><data:post.newerLinkText/></a> &#160; <a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newestLinkUrl'><data:post.newestLinkText/></a> </b:if> </span> </b:if> <div expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_comments-block-wrapper&quot;'> <dl expr:class='data:post.avatarIndentClass' id='comments-block'> <b:loop values='data:post.comments' var='comment'> <dt expr:class='&quot;comment-author &quot; + data:comment.authorClass' expr:id='data:comment.anchorName'> <b:if cond='data:comment.favicon'> <img expr:src='data:comment.favicon' height='16px' style='margin-bottom:-2px;' width='16px'/> </b:if> <a expr:name='data:comment.anchorName'/> <b:if cond='data:blog.enabledCommentProfileImages'> <data:comment.authorAvatarImage/> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:comment.authorUrl'> <a expr:href='data:comment.authorUrl' rel='nofollow'><data:comment.author/></a> <b:else/> <data:comment.author/> </b:if> <data:commentPostedByMsg/> </dt> <dd class='comment-body' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + data:comment.cmtBodyIdPostfix'> <b:if cond='data:comment.isDeleted'> <span class='deleted-comment'><data:comment.body/></span> <b:else/> <p> <data:comment.body/> </p> </b:if> </dd> <dd class='comment-footer'> <span class='comment-timestamp'> <a expr:href='data:comment.url' title='comment permalink'> <data:comment.timestamp/> </a> <b:include data='comment' name='commentDeleteIcon'/> </span> </dd> </b:loop> </dl> </div> <b:if cond='data:post.commentPagingRequired'> <span class='paging-control-container'> <a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.oldestLinkUrl'> <data:post.oldestLinkText/> </a> <a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.olderLinkUrl'> <data:post.olderLinkText/> </a> &#160; <data:post.commentRangeText/> &#160; <a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newerLinkUrl'> <data:post.newerLinkText/> </a> <a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newestLinkUrl'> <data:post.newestLinkText/> </a> </span> </b:if> <p class='comment-footer'> <b:if cond='data:post.embedCommentForm'> <b:if cond='data:post.allowNewComments'> <b:include data='post' name='comment-form'/> <b:else/> <data:post.noNewCommentsText/> </b:if> <b:else/> <b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'> <a expr:href='data:post.addCommentUrl' expr:onclick='data:post.addCommentOnclick'><data:postCommentMsg/></a> </b:if> </b:if> </p> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:showCmtPopup'> <div id='comment-popup'> <iframe allowtransparency='true' frameborder='0' id='comment-actions' name='comment-actions' scrolling='no'> </iframe> </div> </b:if> <div id='backlinks-container'> <div expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_backlinks-container&quot;'> <b:if cond='data:post.showBacklinks'> <b:include data='post' name='backlinks'/> </b:if> </div> </div> </div> </b:includable> <b:includable id='feedLinks'> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != &quot;item&quot;'> <!-- Blog feed links --> <b:if cond='data:feedLinks'> <div class='blog-feeds'> <b:include data='feedLinks' name='feedLinksBody'/> </div> </b:if> <b:else/> <!--Post feed links --> <div class='post-feeds'> <b:loop values='data:posts' var='post'> <b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'> <b:if cond='data:post.feedLinks'> <b:include data='post.feedLinks' name='feedLinksBody'/> </b:if> </b:if> </b:loop> </div> </b:if> </b:includable> <b:includable id='feedLinksBody' var='links'> <div class='feed-links'> <data:feedLinksMsg/> <b:loop values='data:links' var='f'> <a class='feed-link' expr:href='data:f.url' expr:type='data:f.mimeType' target='_blank'><data:f.name/> (<data:f.feedType/>)</a> </b:loop> </div> </b:includable> <b:includable id='iframe_comments' var='post'> <b:if cond='data:post.allowIframeComments'> <script expr:src='data:post.iframeCommentSrc' type='text/javascript'/> <div class='cmt_iframe_holder' expr:data-href='data:post.canonicalUrl' expr:data-viewtype='data:post.viewType'/> <b:if cond='data:post.embedCommentForm == &quot;false&quot;'> <a expr:href='data:post.addCommentUrl' expr:onclick='data:post.addCommentOnclick'><data:postCommentMsg/></a> </b:if> </b:if> </b:includable> <b:includable id='mobile-index-post' var='post'> <div class='mobile-date-outer date-outer'> <b:if cond='data:post.dateHeader'> <div class='date-header'> <span><data:post.dateHeader/></span> </div> </b:if> <div class='mobile-post-outer'> <a expr:href='data:post.url'> <h3 class='mobile-index-title entry-title' itemprop='name'> <data:post.title/> </h3> <div class='mobile-index-arrow'>&amp;rsaquo;</div> <div class='mobile-index-contents'> <b:if cond='data:post.thumbnailUrl'> <div class='mobile-index-thumbnail'> <div class='Image'> <img expr:src='data:post.thumbnailUrl'/> </div> </div> </b:if> <div class='post-body'> <b:if cond='data:post.snippet'><data:post.snippet/></b:if> </div> </div> <div style='clear: both;'/> </a> <div class='mobile-index-comment'> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != &quot;static_page&quot;'> <b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'> <b:if cond='data:post.numComments != 0'> <b:include data='post' name='comment_count_picker'/> </b:if> </b:if> </b:if> </div> </div> </div> </b:includable> <b:includable id='mobile-main' var='top'> <!-- posts --> <div class='blog-posts hfeed'> <b:include data='top' name='status-message'/> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == &quot;index&quot;'> <b:loop values='data:posts' var='post'> <b:include data='post' name='mobile-index-post'/> </b:loop> <b:else/> <b:loop values='data:posts' var='post'> <b:include data='post' name='mobile-post'/> </b:loop> </b:if> </div> <b:include name='mobile-nextprev'/> </b:includable> <b:includable id='mobile-nextprev'> <div class='blog-pager' id='blog-pager'> <b:if cond='data:newerPageUrl'> <div class='mobile-link-button' id='blog-pager-newer-link'> <a class='blog-pager-newer-link' expr:href='data:newerPageUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_blog-pager-newer-link&quot;' expr:title='data:newerPageTitle'>&amp;lsaquo;</a> </div> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:olderPageUrl'> <div class='mobile-link-button' id='blog-pager-older-link'> <a class='blog-pager-older-link' expr:href='data:olderPageUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_blog-pager-older-link&quot;' expr:title='data:olderPageTitle'>&amp;rsaquo;</a> </div> </b:if> <div class='mobile-link-button' id='blog-pager-home-link'> <a class='home-link' expr:href='data:blog.homepageUrl'><data:homeMsg/></a> </div> <div class='mobile-desktop-link'> <a class='home-link' expr:href='data:desktopLinkUrl'><data:desktopLinkMsg/></a> </div> </div> <div class='clear'/> </b:includable> <b:includable id='mobile-post' var='post'> <div class='date-outer'> <b:if cond='data:post.dateHeader'> <h2 class='date-header'><span><data:post.dateHeader/></span></h2> </b:if> <div class='date-posts'> <div class='post-outer'> <div class='post hentry uncustomized-post-template' itemscope='itemscope' itemtype='http://schema.org/BlogPosting'> <b:if cond='data:post.thumbnailUrl'> <meta expr:content='data:post.thumbnailUrl' itemprop='image_url'/> </b:if> <meta expr:content='data:blog.blogId' itemprop='blogId'/> <meta expr:content='data:post.id' itemprop='postId'/> <a expr:name='data:post.id'/> <b:if cond='data:post.title'> <h3 class='post-title entry-title' itemprop='name'> <b:if cond='data:post.link'> <a expr:href='data:post.link'><data:post.title/></a> <b:else/> <b:if cond='data:post.url'> <b:if cond='data:blog.url != data:post.url'> <a expr:href='data:post.url'><data:post.title/></a> <b:else/> <data:post.title/> </b:if> <b:else/> <data:post.title/> </b:if> </b:if> </h3> </b:if> <div class='post-header'> <div class='post-header-line-1'/> </div> <div class='post-body entry-content' expr:id='&quot;post-body-&quot; + data:post.id' itemprop='articleBody'> <data:post.body/> <div style='clear: both;'/> <!-- clear for photos floats --> </div> <div class='post-footer'> <div class='post-footer-line post-footer-line-1'> <span class='post-author vcard'> <b:if cond='data:top.showAuthor'> <b:if cond='data:post.authorProfileUrl'> <span class='fn' itemprop='author' itemscope='itemscope' itemtype='http://schema.org/Person'> <meta expr:content='data:post.authorProfileUrl' itemprop='url'/> <a expr:href='data:post.authorProfileUrl' rel='author' title='author profile'> <span itemprop='name'><data:post.author/></span> </a> </span> <b:else/> <span class='fn' itemprop='author' itemscope='itemscope' itemtype='http://schema.org/Person'> <span itemprop='name'><data:post.author/></span> </span> </b:if> </b:if> </span> <span class='post-timestamp'> <b:if cond='data:top.showTimestamp'> <data:top.timestampLabel/> <b:if cond='data:post.url'> <meta expr:content='data:post.canonicalUrl' itemprop='url'/> <a class='timestamp-link' expr:href='data:post.url' rel='bookmark' title='permanent link'><abbr class='published' expr:title='data:post.timestampISO8601' itemprop='datePublished'><data:post.timestamp/></abbr></a> </b:if> </b:if> </span> <span class='post-comment-link'> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != &quot;item&quot;'> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != &quot;static_page&quot;'> <b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'> <b:include data='post' name='comment_count_picker'/> </b:if> </b:if> </b:if> </span> </div> <div class='post-footer-line post-footer-line-2'> <b:if cond='data:top.showMobileShare'> <div class='mobile-link-button goog-inline-block' id='mobile-share-button'> <a href='javascript:void(0);'><data:shareMsg/></a> </div> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:top.showDummy'> <div class='goog-inline-block dummy-container'><data:post.dummyTag/></div> </b:if> </div> </div> </div> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == &quot;static_page&quot;'> <b:include data='post' name='comment_picker'/> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == &quot;item&quot;'> <b:include data='post' name='comment_picker'/> </b:if> </div> </div> </div> </b:includable> <b:includable id='nextprev'> <div class='blog-pager' id='blog-pager'> <b:if cond='data:newerPageUrl'> <span id='blog-pager-newer-link'> <a class='blog-pager-newer-link' expr:href='data:newerPageUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_blog-pager-newer-link&quot;' expr:title='data:newerPageTitle'><data:newerPageTitle/></a> </span> </b:if> <b:if cond='data:olderPageUrl'> <span id='blog-pager-older-link'> <a class='blog-pager-older-link' expr:href='data:olderPageUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + &quot;_blog-pager-older-link&quot;' expr:title='data:olderPageTitle'><data:olderPageTitle/></a> </span> </b:if> <a class='home-link' expr:href='data:blog.homepageUrl'><data:homeMsg/></a> <b:if cond='data:mobileLinkUrl'> <div class='blog-mobile-link'> <a expr:href='data:mobileLinkUrl'><data:mobileLinkMsg/></a> </div> </b:if> </div> <div class='clear'/> </b:includable> <b:includable id='post' var='post'> <div class='post hentry' itemprop='blogPost' itemscope='itemscope' itemtype='http://schema.org/BlogPosting'> <b:if cond='data:post.firstImageUrl'> <meta expr:content='data:post.firstImageUrl' itemprop='image_url'/> </b:if> <meta expr:content='data:blog.blogId' itemprop='blogId'/> <meta expr:content='data:post.id' itemprop='postId'/> <a expr:name='data:post.id'/> <b:if cond='data:post.title'> <h3 class='post-title entry-title' itemprop='name'> <b:if cond='data:post.link'> <a 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expr:href='data:post.url + &quot;#more&quot;' expr:title='data:post.title'><data:post.jumpText/></a> </div> </b:if> <div class='post-footer'> <div class='post-footer-line post-footer-line-1'><span class='post-author vcard'> <b:if cond='data:top.showAuthor'> <data:top.authorLabel/> <b:if cond='data:post.authorProfileUrl'> <span class='fn' itemprop='author' itemscope='itemscope' itemtype='http://schema.org/Person'> <meta expr:content='data:post.authorProfileUrl' itemprop='url'/> <a class='g-profile' expr:href='data:post.authorProfileUrl' rel='author' title='author profile'> <span itemprop='name'><data:post.author/></span> </a> </span> <b:else/> <span class='fn' itemprop='author' itemscope='itemscope' itemtype='http://schema.org/Person'> <span itemprop='name'><data:post.author/></span> </span> </b:if> </b:if> </span> <span class='post-timestamp'> <b:if cond='data:top.showTimestamp'> <data:top.timestampLabel/> <b:if cond='data:post.url'> <meta expr:content='data:post.canonicalUrl' 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&quot;_backlinks-container&quot;'> <b:if cond='data:post.showBacklinks'> <b:include data='post' name='backlinks'/> </b:if> </div> </div> </div> </b:includable> </b:widget> </b:section> </div> </div> <div class='column-left-outer'> <div class='column-left-inner'> <aside> <macro:include id='main-column-left-sections' name='sections'> <macro:param default='0' name='num' value='0'/> <macro:param default='sidebar-left' name='idPrefix'/> <macro:param default='sidebar' name='class'/> <macro:param default='true' name='includeBottom'/> </macro:include> </aside> </div> </div> <div class='column-right-outer'> <div class='column-right-inner'> <aside> <macro:include id='main-column-right-sections' name='sections'> <macro:param default='2' name='num' value='1'/> <macro:param default='sidebar-right' name='idPrefix'/> <macro:param default='sidebar' name='class'/> <macro:param default='true' name='includeBottom'/> </macro:include> </aside> </div> </div> </div> <div style='clear: both'/> <!-- columns --> </div> <!-- main --> </div> </div> <div class='main-cap-bottom cap-bottom'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> </div> <footer> <div class='footer-outer'> <div class='footer-cap-top cap-top'> <div class='cap-left'/> <div class='cap-right'/> </div> <div class='fauxborder-left footer-fauxborder-left'> <div class='fauxborder-right footer-fauxborder-right'/> <div class='region-inner footer-inner'> <macro:include id='footer-sections' name='sections'> <macro:param default='2' name='num' value='1'/> <macro:param default='footer' name='idPrefix'/> <macro:param default='foot' name='class'/> <macro:param default='false' name='includeBottom'/> </macro:include> <!-- outside of the include in order to lock Attribution widget --> <b:section class='foot' id='footer-3' showaddelement='no'> <b:widget id='Attribution1' locked='true' title='' type='Attribution'> <b:includable id='main'> <b:if cond='data:feedbackSurveyLink'> <div class='mobile-survey-link' style='text-align: 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publish.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_BACKLINKS_ALLOWED2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to show comment backlinks on the blogfalsemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_BY_POST_ARCHIVING2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to provide an archive page for each posttruemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_COMMENT_ACCESS2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Who can commentREGISTEREDmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_COMMENT_CAPTCHA2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to require 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Diary...milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_EMAIL_POST_LINKS2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to show a link for users to e-mail postsfalsemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_FEED_REDIRECT_URL2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00URL to redirect post feed requests tomilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_FLOAT_ALIGNMENT2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether float alignment is enabled for the blogtruemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_LOCALE2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Language for this 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postsFULLmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_POST_FEED_FOOTER2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Footer to append to the end of each entry in the post feedmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_POST_TEMPLATE2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00The template for blog postsmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_PROMOTED2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether this blog can be promoted on Bloggertruemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_QUICK_EDITING2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether Quick Editing is 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enginestruemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_SEND_EMAIL2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Comma separated list of emails to send new blog posts tomilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_SHOW_TITLE2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to show the title fieldtruemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_SHOW_URL2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to show a related link box in the post composerfalsemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_SUBDOMAIN2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00The BlogSpot subdomain under which to publish your blogawildemilyappearsmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_TIME_STAMP_FORMAT2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00The number of the time stamp format1milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_TIME_ZONE2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00The time zone for this blogAmerica/Los_Angelesmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.settings.BLOG_USE_LIGHTBOX2010-03-29T19:12:12.640-07:002013-08-27T18:58:51.055-07:00Whether to show images in the Lightbox when clickedtruemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-71307967795629693682013-05-14T07:46:00.002-07:002013-05-21T00:55:24.371-07:00yesI am a woman who loves women in every possible way that implies, and if you think our empowerment is anything but positive you are wasting your goddamn breath on me.<br /><b>you.&nbsp;</b><br /><b>are.</b><br /><b>wasting.</b><br /><b>your.</b><br /><b>goddamn.</b><br /><b>middle-class.</b><br /><b>breath.</b>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-19109188631937304862013-05-12T07:07:00.001-07:002013-05-12T07:07:54.176-07:00what's a relationship without affection? without constant-as-possible physical contact?<br /><br />you've got your full time education and your full time job and your part time lover - what purpose does she serve? where does she fit in? <i>where do i fit in?</i><br /><i><br /></i><b>you're a disappointment.</b>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-76733017796527187022013-05-10T01:56:00.001-07:002013-05-10T01:56:47.111-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/6/7/5/6/2506576/black/image1xl.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/6/7/5/6/2506576/black/image1xl.jpg" width="250" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/8/4/0/4/2694048/bluered/image1xl.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/8/4/0/4/2694048/bluered/image1xl.jpg" width="250" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/0/0/3/9/2769300/black/image1xl.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/0/0/3/9/2769300/black/image1xl.jpg" width="250" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/4/3/8/3/2673834/image3xl.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://images.asos-media.com/inv/media/4/3/8/3/2673834/image3xl.jpg" width="250" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">ASOS haul.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It's gonna be so nice to have proper winter clothes.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-4076491807916950432013-05-05T04:39:00.004-07:002013-05-05T04:39:52.873-07:00Today is my fourth day on Effexor. Medication has helped pull me up and out of the darkness before, and this time around I felt as though I just couldn't do it by myself. My emotions have been haywire for the past year or so, a series of euphoric highs and devastating lows with no in between, no solid ground. A little over a week before the doctor's appointment we planned I came full circle with my shitty thoughts and I began feeling substantially more stable, so I was doubtful that I still needed the help I'd been seeking - this was only momentary though. I don't want to wake up every single day already on the verge of an anxiety attack. I don't want to be up at three AM on a school night screaming because I physically cannot stop crying. I don't want to spend any more mornings scrubbing the blood out from under my fingernails and I don't want to work another nine hour shift with open wounds. I don't want to feel like throwing myself under a train because my socks are wrong (don't ask me how - they're just <i>wrong</i>). I don't want to only be able to eat take away for weeks because something in the fridge was mouldy and now everything in my house is contaminated. I want to be well. I want to make people happy. I made the right choice.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-62658861627347485132013-04-30T07:09:00.002-07:002013-04-30T07:09:08.532-07:00It does not bother me one tiny little bit if you don't care about me. What makes me so sad is that you won't let me care about you.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-54958390406161151142013-04-26T08:27:00.001-07:002013-04-26T08:27:33.528-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.asofterworld.com/clean/clouded.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="232" src="http://www.asofterworld.com/clean/clouded.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-29210847890663721552013-04-11T08:53:00.001-07:002013-04-11T08:53:38.389-07:00you are comfortable, snug<div>like a tightly wrapped bandage</div><div>protecting the wound beneath</div><div>but not letting it heal.</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-89484435234294264312013-04-11T04:14:00.001-07:002013-04-11T04:14:34.430-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images-onepick-opensocial.googleusercontent.com/gadgets/proxy?container=onepick&amp;gadget=a&amp;rewriteMime=image%2F*&amp;url=http%3A%2F%2Fsphotos-h.ak.fbcdn.net%2Fhphotos-ak-snc7%2F309367_380997198628671_1019551779_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="300" src="http://images-onepick-opensocial.googleusercontent.com/gadgets/proxy?container=onepick&amp;gadget=a&amp;rewriteMime=image%2F*&amp;url=http%3A%2F%2Fsphotos-h.ak.fbcdn.net%2Fhphotos-ak-snc7%2F309367_380997198628671_1019551779_n.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I miss this night. I miss being this person.</div>Sadsadsad.<br /><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-85017338843533978332013-04-07T00:35:00.000-07:002013-04-07T00:36:12.718-07:00A Thing I wrote at the end of Year Eleven.Writing is tearing yourself open.<br />Prose is a gaping, septic wound.<br />Writing is your thoughts bursting out of you like amniotic fluid.<br />Prose is a screaming, purple-skinned infant, with a grotesque, gnarled face.<br />The reader is a needle and thread.<br />The critic is antibiotic.<br />The reader is a comforting hand on the small of your back.<br />The critic is the midwife.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-3718519990023093392013-04-06T09:19:00.003-07:002013-04-06T09:19:45.190-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://s3.amazonaws.com/static.kungfustore.com/system/photos/assets/5692/5692-max.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://s3.amazonaws.com/static.kungfustore.com/system/photos/assets/5692/5692-max.jpg" width="266" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I bought this shirt and this shirt is a shirt that does not lie.</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-23455601903444390142013-04-06T09:18:00.000-07:002013-04-06T09:18:07.362-07:00<i>And then we fell down<br />And we locked arms<br />We knocked the dresser over as we rolled across the floor<br />I don't mean it when I tell you<br />That I don't love you any more<br />Look at that,<br />Would you look at that?<br />The way the ceiling starts to swerve<br />What will I do when I don't have you<br />When I finally get what I deserve?</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-25844491564123861202013-04-06T09:15:00.001-07:002013-04-06T09:15:59.130-07:00<i>Pulled my sleeves down over my hands, over my hands<br />And I wished I was someone else, and I wished it was warmer</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-51608628943776921942013-04-05T05:32:00.001-07:002013-04-05T05:32:31.422-07:00yesCutting my wrists is so much more satisfying thanmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-11299323672703048202013-04-03T07:37:00.000-07:002013-04-03T07:37:36.117-07:00He is the most magnificent creature, more human than anyone I have ever known. He, gracious and generous, so utterly perfect, so beautifully fallible, so compassionately cruel. And oh, how his recklessness has hurt me - how it has torn me limb from limb, how my broken body has ached with longing for him. And how, after almost a year, he still makes my heart beat fiercely against my breast like a wild animal does the cage that holds them captive.<i> I would die for you.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-18865273890213471242013-03-29T03:50:00.005-07:002013-03-29T03:50:48.621-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images4.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113231003/creepypasta/images/5/50/MARIO_00005.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://images4.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113231003/creepypasta/images/5/50/MARIO_00005.png" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113232837/creepypasta/images/7/73/MARIO_00010.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="157" src="http://images3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113232837/creepypasta/images/7/73/MARIO_00010.png" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113234319/creepypasta/images/0/0f/MARIO_00015.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="157" src="http://images3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113234319/creepypasta/images/0/0f/MARIO_00015.png" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images4.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113235441/creepypasta/images/9/9b/MARIO_00018.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="143" src="http://images4.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20130113235441/creepypasta/images/9/9b/MARIO_00018.png" width="320" /></a></div><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-42547438718377529822013-03-28T06:54:00.001-07:002013-03-28T06:54:59.708-07:00I keep half-wishing for bad things to happen to me so that my boyfriend will care about me and want to look after me which is super unhealthy but eh.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-37517236657843657962013-03-28T06:30:00.000-07:002013-03-28T06:30:21.213-07:00put that thing back where it came from or so help me - or, how to shop at kmart<ul style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><li>It's cool to ask where to find a certain item if you're in a mad rush or have no idea where to start looking. It is my job to help you. I am not, however, a seeing eye dog for the perfectly sighted. Scan the area before you ask for assistance. Be observant. More often than not, the item you're looking for is right under your nose. I had a woman ask me if we sold nail polish whilst I was busy restocking nail polish - literally, hands full of the stuff, standing right in front of the shelf with her not more than a metre away from me. If she had've bothered to look me in the eye, she would've answered her own question.</li><li>If you pick up an item and later decide you don't want to purchase it,&nbsp;<strong>put it back where you found it</strong>. If you drop something or knock something over, pick it up and&nbsp;<strong>put it back where you found it.</strong>&nbsp;I cannot stress this enough. Clothes belong on their hangers, not on the ground. Draping an item of clothing&nbsp;over the top of the rack takes just as much effort as hanging it as intended - which is little to none. I don't expect you to hang it neatly or in order of size or colour, but for the love of god, please just hang it back up. At best, leave your unwanted items at the service desk or place them neatly somewhere where they can be clearly seen. Don't shove them under shelves or inside shoes.&nbsp;</li><li>If you're going to steal footwear, at least steal a pair, and have the decency to throw your manky old ones in the bin.&nbsp;</li><li>Check the damn price tags. They're there for a reason. It's not the register operator's fault if another customer put a twenty dollar pair of jeans on the three dollar clearance rack, and you're not entitled to a discount just because someone didn't&nbsp;<strong>put something back where they found it</strong>.&nbsp;</li><li>It won't hurt you to buy the product in the torn packet or the pair of pants with the missing barcode. However, don't knowingly pick up an item without a barcode and then get all exasperated when the person on the register needs to call for a price check. It doesn't matter if you know how much it costs,&nbsp;I can't sell you the damn thing&nbsp;if I don't have a barcode to scan.</li><li>Don't expect me to know the specifics of every item in the store. I can't tell you anything about that food processor that you couldn't figure out yourself by reading the box.&nbsp;</li><li>I am a five foot three woman and I have never been to the gym. I am not the best person to be asking for assistance with lifting heavy objects.&nbsp;</li><li>Be nice to door staff - say hello! - they are almost definitely about to gouge their own eyes out from boredom.&nbsp;</li><li>Let other customers shop in peace. Keep your hands, feet, racist remarks, and bodily fluids to yourself.&nbsp;</li><li><span style="line-height: 1.4;">Don't be a cunt.</span></li></ul>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-34146502121810697802013-03-15T08:01:00.000-07:002013-03-15T08:01:08.940-07:00CULTURE SHOCK FUTURE SHOCK FUCK YOURSELF CHOKE YOURSELFmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-63708914583887085442013-03-13T05:32:00.000-07:002013-03-13T05:32:27.592-07:0013/3/13I had a lovely night.<br />I met Nat at Melbourne Central after he finished Uni and we got chips from Lord of the Fries. Then, we walked up to the Night Market to meet his Mum, got bubble tea, then we ate at Shanghai Dumplings (as I had never been before) and caught the tram back to his house. We watched an episode of Futurama on Foxtel (Luck of the Fryrish - the episode my tattoo is a reference to, funnily enough) and then his Mum drove me home. He walked me to my door and apologised for having been so busy lately and told me he loved me and I am currently fretting about the possibility of having forgotten to say it back - incredibly silly of me, as I know I would have, but my short term memory is so very foggy today - foggier than usual - and I always have to find something to worry about. Nonetheless, it was good and I am happy.<br />I would've loved to go to the Dog tonight, as Asher and Shani were doing open mic and I haven't seen Lila (or Leon, but he was too sick to attend) in a week, which is far too long, but I don't get the chance to see Nat nearly as often as I do my best friends, so I feel as though my priorities were very much in order. Plus, I have two parties this weekend and everyone I would've seen tonight will be at both of them, so.<br />Nice things, nice things.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-90975889659698399352013-03-13T05:16:00.002-07:002013-03-13T05:16:45.582-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-VBCV1b90JQY/UUBtlC6KsdI/AAAAAAAAAOA/EBF2f0tUkMQ/s1600/Screen+Shot+2013-03-13+at+11.13.46+PM.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="316" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-VBCV1b90JQY/UUBtlC6KsdI/AAAAAAAAAOA/EBF2f0tUkMQ/s320/Screen+Shot+2013-03-13+at+11.13.46+PM.png" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>This is... this is accurate.<br />Dunno what the "affair" might refer to, though. Certainly not one of my own (since I am... not having one).milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-40776833666975864562013-03-11T06:17:00.001-07:002013-03-11T06:17:25.387-07:00I am five foot three and I have a tiny little waist and a flat tummy and virtually no breasts and ribs that jut out all over the place and when I lay down to sleep my hip bones feel like they're about to rip through my flesh but I have big thighs that rub together when I walk and a big butt and chubby upper arms and I have never ever ever ever felt like a "skinny" girl.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-33586255780707532202013-03-10T04:19:00.000-07:002013-03-10T04:20:13.370-07:00<div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;">from my window looked out upon nothing</div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: right;"><i>and nothing looked right back at me</i></div></div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-23994004787054261242013-03-08T04:48:00.001-08:002013-03-08T04:48:44.631-08:00I am digging caverns in my skin and hiding my worries in them.<div>I am lost. I do not know where to go from here. The path ahead of me is as dark as the night.</div><div>My heart is heavy, my tongue; twisted.</div><div>Bury me, bury me, bury me.</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-57317958029661805582013-03-07T01:46:00.002-08:002013-03-07T01:49:53.513-08:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://24.media.tumblr.com/724e85d682ded3f9d08ea8d208498fda/tumblr_mja29g3G381r85j1qo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/724e85d682ded3f9d08ea8d208498fda/tumblr_mja29g3G381r85j1qo1_500.jpg" /></a></div><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-64596310013125183932013-03-01T05:27:00.000-08:002013-03-01T05:27:18.662-08:00Found this in my drafts. From August last year.<br /><blockquote class="tr_bq"><i><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I feel like I’m realising the error of my ways far too late to change anything.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I need to stay calm.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I need to rationalise, and I need to be mature enough to recognise that things can’t always be perfect, and nothing is constant.</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I need to stop inventing situations to agonise over that haven’t actually happened.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I need to stop jumping to the worst possible conclusion.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I need to stop trying so hard to ‘fix’ what isn’t even broken.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">Whilst it is important to recognise where I’ve fucked up, I also need to recognise that I am human and it is okay for me to make mistakes. No amount of guilt can erase the past. What’s done is done, and may, in fact, be utterly insignificant to everyone but me.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I just need to suck this the fuck up and take everything at face value, being careful not to cause any more hurt along the way.&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I am allowed to be sad but I am&nbsp;</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px; outline: none 0px;">not</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">&nbsp;allowed to be so fucking self-indulgent.</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I’m sorry, I’m trying.</span></i></blockquote>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-44630982526432839872013-02-24T05:46:00.001-08:002013-02-24T05:46:15.542-08:00yes<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8f37zRr7U1r7tcwqo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m8f37zRr7U1r7tcwqo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">tell her you<i> don't </i>love her.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-27600880358715890042013-02-24T00:13:00.001-08:002013-02-24T00:13:28.018-08:00yes<i>and I will find a crowd</i><br /><i>and blend in for a minute&nbsp;</i><br /><i>and I will try to find&nbsp;</i><br /><i>a little comfort in it</i><br /><i><br /></i>Last night was beautiful, heartening, memorable.<br />I am so in love with this city and the people who inhabit it.<br /><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-46101127000681497342013-02-22T05:45:00.001-08:002013-02-26T04:35:55.222-08:00ToddlingIt's about time I started taking better care of myself.<br />I opened a savings account today, and on Monday I am going to go down to Centrelink and find out if I'm eligible for anything.<br />Mostly because Mum has agreed to pay my fees for me, which are two grand a year (which is still quite affordable, but every "affordable" thing eventually adds up) without a healthcare card, but just a little over five-hundred with.<br />I have set myself a goal - save at least fifty dollars per week. This should add up to two-hundred a month, and if I can manage to continue earning (slowly but surely) as much as I have been since I started work, I will have saved a grand in five months time.<br />I'm not certain what I will spend this money on. Either a car, a trip to the country I've been endlessly fascinated with since Primary School, or rent, if I find a suitable place to live.<br />It's a whole six months later, I know, but I've finally booked my tattoo, which was among the first things on my mental "when I turn eighteen..." list. I am excited beyond belief. I've had my heart set on this design for years and years.<br />I must also; book driving lessons, get my concession form stamped, give the bank my tax file number, and, most importantly, <i>talk to him.</i><br /><br />Small steps, small steps, even the smallest of steps will eventually carry me home.<br /><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-71622889578055803182013-02-18T04:55:00.000-08:002013-02-18T04:55:05.842-08:00<i>and when somebody asks if I’m okay <br />I don’t know what to say <br />and along the highway<br />from cast-off innumerable seeds <br />wild sage growing in the weeds.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-11555619451226906722013-02-17T03:30:00.002-08:002013-02-17T03:30:21.585-08:00<div>I had quite a lot of wine last night, and in my drunken state took to tumblr and posted;</div><div><br /></div><blockquote class="tr_bq">When I was happy three was wok plainmpcp font on chartere And fave book Don’t stellar towhee people na ND seen your message rand so muhnnksosocglisnkm h I miss you Althing #m #your meesqje ounmrf me jappyie tjtme od hebrr hbeen before i dloprl #o</blockquote>I seem to remember meaning to say "when I was happy there was no plain packaging on cigarettes and facebook didn't notify me when you'd seen my message".<br /><br />I suppose the point was that my world was an awfully different place back then.<br /><br />It's such an awful pity that you've grown too big for it.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-53419900524608340292013-02-17T03:22:00.003-08:002013-02-17T03:22:44.349-08:00noughts and crosses<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://24.media.tumblr.com/3214b6e38f0785cf7a193d2a61f0cb38/tumblr_micy2lGzxy1rpcdtlo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/3214b6e38f0785cf7a193d2a61f0cb38/tumblr_micy2lGzxy1rpcdtlo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">your body is a vessel</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">every inch of you</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">has a tale to tell.</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-26008321999442202142013-01-26T07:56:00.001-08:002013-02-01T23:35:35.818-08:00yesi've have seven little dolls<br />in a bag<br />and i tell the dolls my troubles<br />and the dolls say "nag! nag! nag! nag!<br />is that all you ever do?<br />is that all you're capable of? <br />and i say to the little dolls<br />you have no compassion<br />baby<br />i'm talking to inanimate objects<br />over youmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-73041821458859556542013-01-26T07:53:00.001-08:002013-01-26T07:53:19.694-08:00photosynthesissprinkle<br /><br />just a little green<br /><br />amongst the brown<br /><br />just enough to remember<br /><br />just enough to forget<br /><br />and like a weed<br /><br />breaking through the crack in the asphalt<br /><br />pull yourself up<br /><br />towards the lightmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-37426710439438058482013-01-22T02:07:00.001-08:002013-01-22T02:07:11.137-08:00<i>after one long season of waiting,&nbsp;</i><br /><i>after one long season of wanting,&nbsp;</i><br /><i>i am breaking open.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-57388841829149748672013-01-12T06:19:00.000-08:002013-01-12T06:20:15.238-08:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lhh9l7HoiI1qdizsw.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="217" src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lhh9l7HoiI1qdizsw.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>I am utterly smitten with Mia Fey.<br />A woman with the double-handicap of being both fictional and dead.<br />Love at first sight, it was.<br />I feel this fact speaks volumes about my character.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-53871570263417730062013-01-12T04:36:00.001-08:002013-01-12T04:36:55.970-08:00e n o ughyou wore<div>an expression</div><div>a necklace</div><div>which, in silver lettering</div><div>read</div><div><i>"enough"</i></div><div>but all the while&nbsp;</div><div>your body was screaming</div><div><i>"more"</i><br /><br /></div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-51608658308188371252013-01-10T23:13:00.004-08:002013-02-18T04:55:46.127-08:00yes1.<br /><br />I told you that I was a roadway of potholes, not safe to cross. You said nothing, showed up in my driveway wearing roller-skates.<br /><br /><br />2.<br /><br />The first time I asked you on a date, after you hung up, I held the air between our phones against my ear and whispered, “You will fall in love with me. Then, just months later, you will fall out. I will pretend the entire time that I don’t know it’s coming.”<br /><br /><br />3.<br /><br />Once, I got naked and danced around your bedroom, awkward and safe. You did the same. We held each other without hesitation and flailed lovely. This was vulnerability foreplay.<br /><br /><br />4.<br /><br />The last eight times I told you I loved you, they sounded like apologies.<br /><br /><br />5.<br /><br />You recorded me a CD of you repeating, “You are beautiful.” I listened to it until I no longer thought in my own voice.<br /><br /><br />6.<br /><br />Into the half-empty phone line, I whispered, <i>“We will wake up believing the worst in each other. We will spit shrapnel at each other’s hearts. The bruises will lodge somewhere we don’t know how to look for and I will still pretend I don’t know its coming.”</i><br /><br /><br />7.<br /><br />You photographed my eyebrow shapes and turned them into flashcards: mood on one side, correct response on the other. You studied them until you knew when to stay silent.<br /><br /><br />8.<br /><br />I bought you an entire bakery so that we could eat nothing but breakfast for a week. Breakfast, untainted by the day ahead, was when we still smiled at each other as if we meant it.<br /><br /><br />9.<br /><br />I whispered, <i>“I will latch on like a deadbolt to a door and tell you it is only because I want to protect you. Really, I’m afraid that without you I mean nothing.”</i><br /><br /><br />10.<br /><br />I gave you a bouquet of plane tickets so I could practice the feeling of watching you leave.<br /><br /><br />11.<br /><br /><b><i>I picked you up from the airport limping. In your absence, I’d forgotten how to walk. When I collapsed at your feet, you refused to look at me until I learned to stand up without your help.</i></b><br /><br /><br />12.<br /><br />Too scared to move, I stared while you set fire to your apartment – its walls decaying beyond repair, roaches invading the corpse of your bedroom. You tossed all the faulty appliances through the smoke out your window, screaming that <i>you couldn’t handle choking on one more thing that wouldn’t just fix himself.</i><br /><br /><br />13.<br /><br />I whispered, “We will each weed through the last year and try to spot the moment we began breaking. We will repel sprint away from each other. Your voice will take months to drain out from my ears. You will throw away your notebook of tally marks from each time you wondered if I was worth the work. The invisible bruises will finally surface and I will still pretend that I didn’t know it was coming.”<br /><br /><br />14.<br /><br /><i>The entire time, I was only pretending that I knew it was coming.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-44816371676805973392013-01-09T04:43:00.001-08:002013-01-09T04:43:46.620-08:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://24.media.tumblr.com/d3f87d33f2759cd5454f0891f858f7ab/tumblr_mgcmiaWHTL1rpcdtlo1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/d3f87d33f2759cd5454f0891f858f7ab/tumblr_mgcmiaWHTL1rpcdtlo1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-28921082978248504302013-01-08T02:20:00.002-08:002013-01-08T02:20:56.564-08:00<i>in our lives together, which are sweet in the way of rotting things, it is somehow permanently summer.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-49418347508223021302012-12-28T05:41:00.000-08:002013-02-18T05:05:45.012-08:00yessinging songs of lovers past<br />I traced the letters carved into your flesh<br />and I asked you<br />"in ten years time<br />would you still want to look down at your arms<br />and see his name?"<br />and you nodded "yes"<br />a defiant "yes"<br />a consenting "yes"<br />a "yes" I understand now<br />like I could not have then<br />we made love<br />briefly and dispassionately<br />and I hold on to that moment<br />when I could not have hated you<br />like I do now.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-86671023955609627562012-12-27T23:05:00.002-08:002012-12-28T05:28:51.635-08:00<span style="font-family: .Helvetica NeueUI; font-size: medium;"><span style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); line-height: 24px;">1</span></span><br /><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">awoke&nbsp;at six am</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">couldn't sleep, couldn't move</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">anticipation, excitement</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">hunger pains, throbbing head</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">first love, first touch</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">first cut, first bruise</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">gentle giant, brotherly love.</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;"><br /></div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">2</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">don't touch me, for I am sick</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">don't let me get away with this</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">empty, rotten</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">every word dripping with poison</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">knuckles colliding with your jaw</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">I will never say I'm sorry.</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;"><br /></div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">3</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">and now you're here, my first great love</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">blood in your mouth, bruise on my thigh</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">tufts of unruly coca-cola hair splashed across your forehead</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">you pressed your warm lips to my neck</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">and when you mumbled "I love you"</div><div style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; font-size: 18px; line-height: 24px;">I couldn't quite make out the words.</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-5503235912118240582012-12-25T06:13:00.003-08:002012-12-25T06:13:24.715-08:00Twelve.What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory?<br />the Twenty-Eighth of April.<br /><b>the Tenth of May.</b><br />the Sixteenth of June.<br />the Twenty-Eighth of June.<br />the Seventeenth of August.<br />the Twenty-First of August. <br />the Nineteenth of October.<br />the Nineteenth of November, Five-Fifteen PM.<br /><br />Whose behaviour made you appalled?<br />His, at a few very specific times. Georgia's, and my Father's.<br /><br />What song will always remind you of 2012?<br />This Year. <br /><br />Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?<br />Happier.<br />Five kilograms lighter.<br />Four hundred and fifty dollars richer.<br /><br />Did you fall in love in 2012?<br />Very, very much so.<br /><br />What political issue stirred you the most?<br />Reproductive rights.<br /><br />Who did you miss?<br />Nat. Clara and Mitchell. Nat.<br /><br />Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.<br /><i>I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-69934546431072102192012-12-25T04:08:00.004-08:002012-12-25T04:08:49.318-08:00<i>we'll bleed together, our hands will not be taught to hold another's</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-8498873784384046432012-12-25T04:06:00.001-08:002012-12-25T04:13:07.235-08:00I wonder if he’ll ever know how in my mind I sketched and skewed a perfect portrait of everything he was to me, scribbled out the sad and the bad and the heavy and the ugly and surrounded him with warm, golden light.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-48609441832550707742012-12-05T06:20:00.003-08:002012-12-25T03:59:50.614-08:00<i>Why, such is love’s transgression. <br />Griefs of mine own lie heavy in my breast, <br />Which thou wilt propagate, to have it press'd <br />With more of thine. <br />This love that thou hast shown <br />Doth add more grief to too much of mine own. <br />Love is a smoke rais'd with the fume of sighs; <br />Being purg'd, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes; <br />Being vex'd, a sea nourish'd with lover's tears. <br />What is it else? <br />A madness most discreet, <br />A choking gall, and a preserving sweet.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-36221402747868648522012-11-04T05:22:00.000-08:002012-11-04T05:22:02.424-08:00Writing in third person makes Emily feel very self-important and uncomfortable.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-92149178719520503572012-11-04T03:48:00.002-08:002012-11-04T03:48:34.503-08:00I awoke this morning, crammed into the corner of the couch, my lungs aching to expel the evils of the previous night, to punish me for the wreckless, hedonistic path of self-destruction I had chosen.<br /><br />I gathered the few belongings I had brought with me and slung my bag over my shoulder, glancing back into the room at my friends; deep in their heavy, drug-induced sleep. I bid them a silent farewell and stole away into the morning's first light.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-66670636424185264032012-10-25T07:59:00.001-07:002012-10-25T07:59:27.945-07:00I am the cigarette abandoned in the ashtray, hopeful ember choking through ash, smoke billowing and curling up towards the ceiling, a sad monument to my forgetful owner, nicotine stained lips locking fellow flesh as I slowly burn away.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-51648802916119037742012-10-17T01:26:00.001-07:002012-10-17T01:26:14.155-07:00<i>The house was pretty and the yard was wide&nbsp;</i><br /><i>And I felt strong with you at my side&nbsp;</i><br /><i>Your eyes at night had a beautiful glowing in them&nbsp;</i><br /><i>And I knew in my heart just what was growing in them&nbsp;</i><br /><i><br /></i><i>Ah, but you made me drink poison&nbsp;</i><br /><i>It felt smooth running down my throat&nbsp;</i><br /><i>I love you, and you made me drink poison&nbsp;</i><br /><i>It was cool and smooth and sweet&nbsp;</i><br /><i>Do you remember?&nbsp;</i><br /><i><br /></i><i>We had a bed of daisies thriving in the yard&nbsp;</i><br /><i>And I quit my job, so I could hold you all the time&nbsp;</i><br /><i>I tried to stop the thing metastasizing in us&nbsp;</i><br /><i>But in the warm, slow evening I could feel it rising in us&nbsp;</i><br /><i><br /></i><i>Ah, and you made me drink poison&nbsp;</i><br /><i>It felt so smooth, sliding down my throat&nbsp;</i><br /><i>I love you so much, and you made me drink poison&nbsp;</i><br /><i>It was cool and smooth and sweet and cool</i><br /><i>And smooth and sweet and cool and smooth</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-73815856835900425852012-10-03T04:38:00.001-07:002012-10-03T04:38:33.742-07:00I'd like to thank the left-wing media for helping me maintain my will to livemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-14490683569016125012012-10-02T17:56:00.001-07:002012-10-02T17:56:55.361-07:00I'm really beginning to understand what Anna said about the difference between the state of being "in love" and just loving somebody. When you descend into that valley after the bubbly, hysterical high, it can be a huge shock to your system. But I think the thing about euphoria is that it is an extreme on the same level as melancholia, and extremes are not good for you in high doses. You can't live a life of extremes, it's impossible and unhealthy. The kind of love you're left with after the euphoric phase of your relationship comes to an end is thick, rich and whole-hearted. It's a variation on the kind of love you feel for select family members and best friends you've known for years. You learn to stop thinking of your partner as "perfect" and begin to instead appreciate them despite their shortcomings, and it is something truly beautiful.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-60297763414589765062012-09-30T03:23:00.001-07:002012-09-30T03:23:55.304-07:00yesLoving and being loved - and being "In Love" - feels extraordinary, but makes you so vulnerable. To let someone love you is to put an enormous amount of faith in them. The people we love are the people with the greatest potential to hurt us, and, often, they do so without even realising, and without any ill intent whatsoever. And, of course, we forgive them. Love is forgiveness, acceptance, and&nbsp;perseverance.&nbsp;<div><br /></div><div><br /><div><br /></div><div>&nbsp;<div><br /></div></div></div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-51654604171130610102012-09-30T03:00:00.001-07:002012-09-30T03:00:14.227-07:00Adore<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><object width="320" height="266" class="BLOGGER-youtube-video" classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data-thumbnail-src="http://2.gvt0.com/vi/9uWwvQKGjLI/0.jpg"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/9uWwvQKGjLI&fs=1&source=uds" /><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /><embed width="320" height="266" src="http://www.youtube.com/v/9uWwvQKGjLI&fs=1&source=uds" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object></div><i><br /></i><i>In you I see dirty<br />In you I count stars <br />In you I feel so pretty <br />In you I taste God <br />In you I feel so hungry <br />In you I crash cars <br />We must never be apart.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-28781067854919970342012-09-15T05:56:00.003-07:002013-02-18T04:57:45.948-08:00引きこもり<i>I wanna be&nbsp;</i><br /><i>academic,&nbsp;</i><br /><i>confident,&nbsp;</i><br /><i>and romantic,&nbsp;</i><br /><i>but I just feel weird and overdramatic.&nbsp;</i><br /><i>daily reminders that I am pathetic,&nbsp;</i><br /><i>when you're surrounded by it, it's hard to forget it.&nbsp;</i><br /><i><br /></i><i>everything I had I seem to have lost.&nbsp;</i><br /><i>everyone who loved me seems to have forgot.</i><br /><i>everything I want seems so far away.&nbsp;</i><br /><i>I'll just stay in bed for another day.&nbsp;</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-82926504767731772842012-09-13T03:44:00.001-07:002013-02-18T04:58:00.186-08:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><object class="BLOGGER-youtube-video" classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data-thumbnail-src="http://3.gvt0.com/vi/tJ-wI0xhges/0.jpg" height="266" width="320"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/tJ-wI0xhges&fs=1&source=uds" /><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /><embed width="320" height="266" src="http://www.youtube.com/v/tJ-wI0xhges&fs=1&source=uds" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object></div><br /><i>The first time I made coffee for just myself, I made too much of it <br />But I drank it all just cause you hated when I let things go to waste <br />And I wandered through the house like a little boy lost in the mall <br />And an astronaut could've seen the hunger in my eyes from space</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-26993807890094994332012-09-08T03:38:00.001-07:002012-09-08T03:38:48.332-07:00不備 (fubi):<br /><br>imperfect, deficient, inadequatemilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-84912916851250261792012-09-02T02:32:00.001-07:002013-02-18T05:01:55.487-08:00I just don’t think I could ever find the words to describe how deeply I love him and the lengths to which I would go to keep him with me. I think he’s perfect in every single way. I love everything about him, from his hair and his face to the mistakes he’s made and all the people he has ever been. He is mine and I am his and I would not have it any other way. It kills me that I cannot touch him. I want to weave my fingers through his hair and pull - hard. I want to dig my fingernails into his flesh and unbuckle his belt and leave a trail of kisses from his forehead to the waistband of his boxers. I want his hipbones to leave bruises on the insides of my thighs. I want to hold his hand, I want to kiss his freckles, I want to bite his lip and I want to tell him he’s beautiful. I want every single inch of him to be mine, mine, mine.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-9317096772214345402012-08-30T23:47:00.001-07:002012-08-30T23:47:27.711-07:00<i>Turn out all the lights and cheerio turn them all out there's nothing left the poor aren't clean any more they don't know how to say thankyou they've forgotten how to speak they're dying without saying goodbye</i><br /><i><br /></i><i>The way it is the way it was the way it will be now's now now's always what kills you</i><br /><i><br /></i><i>So fuck off my darling fuck off to hell and don't look back midnight's chime has rung its note and we're for burning as bright as stars</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-78127770521768615282012-08-29T05:19:00.000-07:002012-08-29T05:23:00.566-07:00Cry for Judas.An appetite for self-destruction is a hard one to quash.<br /><div>It digs and digs at your insides until every inch of your body is aching.<br />You yearn for a failure so great it makes all your ambitions seem utterly foolish.<br />You figure since all that you desire is so far out of your reach,<br />There is no point in trying.<br />It's like pulling a face in a photo,<br />Because you'd rather try to look stupid and succeed,<br />Than attempt to look lovely and fail.</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-53423717770004267622012-08-22T03:21:00.002-07:002012-08-29T05:22:21.729-07:00I remember, more clearly than anything else that happened yesterday, you kissing my nose in the car on the way to the airport; I remember how soft your lips felt and the slight trace of saliva they left and how warm they were and the lingering heat I can still feel now if I concentrate really hard - not a scalding, uncomfortable heat, more of a spicy kind of heat, like chili; a heat that spreads over every inch of your skin, a heat that makes your eyes water and your nose run, a heat you can't ignore.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-88546933576601861392012-08-19T01:43:00.001-07:002012-08-19T01:43:41.698-07:00yesAA Characters on the Kinsey Scale (something I wrote months ago)So I've spent a ridiculous amount of time playing the Phoenix-arc Ace Attorney games these holidays and I think it's about time I produced some fandom-ey bullshit so without further adieu<br /><br />A SURPRISING COMPREHENSIVE STUDY OF VARIOUS ~MAIN CHARACTERS IN THIS PARTICULAR VIDEOGAME SERIES BY ME SIR DIGBY CHICKEN CAESAR (DISCLAIMER YOUR MILEAGE WILL VARY ACCORDINGLY)<br /><br />and for those who aren't aware/don't know how to use the google; THE KINSEY SCALE IN ALL ITS GLORY<br /><br /><blockquote>0- Exclusively heterosexual with no homosexual<br />1- Predominantly heterosexual, only incidentally homosexual<br />2- Predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual<br />3- Equally heterosexual and homosexual<br />4- Predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual<br />5- Predominantly homosexual, only incidentally heterosexual<br />6- Exclusively homosexual</blockquote><br />I will use DECIMALS maybe 'cause I CAN<br /><br />LET'S GO<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Phoenix Wright</span> <br />Phoenix always seems slightly shocked by the concept of same-sex attraction. But then again, Phoenix seems slightly shocked by even the most trivial occurrences. Poor dear. <br />I think it's safe to say he's straight, but not without a few exceptions; he certainly has some, ahem, strong feelings towards Edgey, for example, and (purported) Word of God says he finds him "Pretty Hot." <br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">1.5</span>.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Maya Fey</span><br />Who knows? She seems to be attracted to (the oh-so-masculine) Max Galactica, but in the very same case she expresses a fondness for Regina Berry - though not only is Regina portrayed as absolutely irresistible, Maya's words are "<span style="font-style: italic;">Even I</span> want to confess my love to her", which sort of solidifies her heterosexuality; or, at the very least, shows that she sees herself as (mostly) heterosexual. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">2</span>.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Mia Fey</span><br />Mia is attracted to males. That is canon. But if there's any truth to Mia/Lana (which there <span style="font-style: italic;">IS</span>, dammit), she's <span style="font-style: italic;">at least</span> a little heteroflexible. I('d like to) believe she's a nice, even, split-right-down-the-middle bisexual. Though she mightn't identify as such.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">3</span>.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Pearl Fey</span><br />Yes, I know what you're thinking. How on earth can we tell? We sort of can't, but we sort of can; she is extremely sheltered and has had fairytale stock-standard heterosexuality drummed into her mind, causing her to consider every male/female duo to be happily in love - this is definitely grounds for exclusive heterosexuality (or repressed homosexuality?? WE SHALL NEVER KNOW) later in life.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">0</span> - for now. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Dick Gumshoe</span><br />Poor, sweet Gumshoe. I think he's a little Maggey-sexual. I can't even bring myself to give him a rating. But, for consistency's sake;<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">3</span>. JUST TO BE SAFE. He is loyal and puppy-like enough to fall in love with <span style="font-style: italic;">anything</span>, and he <span style="font-style: italic;">did</span> respond to Phoenix's little jab at his sexuality by saying that Jean Armstrong was "not his type". ...implying?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Miles Edgeworth</span><br />Oh, this will be fun. He's certainly never shown himself to be (overtly) attracted to a woman in canon, and he seems to harbour the same, <span style="font-style: italic;">ahem, strong feelings</span>, towards Phoenix as Phoenix does to him. He is also completely, utterly oblivious to the "frothing desire" he inspires in females. And have you <span style="font-style: italic;">seen</span> the guy's office?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">5</span>. Oh, C'mon.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Manfred Von Karma</span><br />May I just say; the sheer amount of testosterone pumping through this man's bloodstream is utterly terrifying. He has a kid, so he's most likely had his Magic Johnson in a girl. Apart from that, there's not much to go off.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">1</span>. Because he's number one.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Franziska Von Karma</span><br />Well, there's all that weirdness with Adrian. And Gumshoe calls her 'Sir'. <br /><br />Probably a <span style="font-weight: bold;">4</span>. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Diego Armando/~Godot</span><br />There's no question, this guy's an alpha male. He calls Ron DeLite 'kitten' on one occasion, but he probably intended that to be a sly dig at him for being flamboyant/feminine/coy/etc.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">0</span>.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Dahlia Hawthorne</span><br />Oh, yay! There's no evidence one way or the other, but in my headcanon our Dahlia is an aromantic Lesbian. She also has ASPD and is a sociopath. NEXT.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">6</span>.<br /><br />AND NOW TO LOCK THIS AWAY IN THE DEPTHS OF MY UNUSED AND UNREAD BLOG BYEmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-71241313648291895742012-08-19T01:35:00.000-07:002012-08-19T01:35:09.011-07:00and I vanish into the dark.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><object width="320" height="266" class="BLOGGER-youtube-video" classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data-thumbnail-src="http://3.gvt0.com/vi/CLN7P_pNe3s/0.jpg"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/CLN7P_pNe3s&fs=1&source=uds" /><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /><embed width="320" height="266" src="http://www.youtube.com/v/CLN7P_pNe3s&fs=1&source=uds" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object></div><br /><i>held under these smothering waves&nbsp;</i><br /><i>by your strong and thick veined hand</i><br /><i>but one of these days&nbsp;</i><br /><i>I'm gonna wriggle up on dry land.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-34467439138972614792012-08-16T02:16:00.001-07:002012-08-29T05:22:33.924-07:00Vitriol, venom, poison. I'm poison.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-88932845484121089102012-08-13T02:56:00.000-07:002012-08-13T02:56:52.409-07:00I rely so heavily on other people's words. I want my own. They grow heavy and sticky in my mouth, so I have no choice but to write. I want to write until my fingertips are numb and my head is light and empty, but I do not know what to write about. I want to write about ripping your heart out of your chest - prising your ribs apart and sinking my fingers into the warm, throbbing muscle. I want to write about the wind whistling past the parked cars outside and the way I shiver and shake from the cold. I want to write about italian food and hot chocolate and choking on thick, suffocating rollie smoke and laughing at things that aren't funny. Sometimes I want to write about love, but it's a concept that is so worn-out, so geriatric and trite. We've heard it all before - we are all of us in love. We are in love with our best friends and our worst enemies, we are in love with strangers on the bus, we are in love with people who reciprocate the feeling so fiercely it scares us, and we are in love with people who disappoint us every single day. We are in love with video games and the sun and the rain and books and drugs and freshly photocopied paper. Those of us who swear we aren't, whose hearts have grown hollow and icy, are in love with their bitterness. Love is foolish, love is involuntary, love gives you no choice. But love is unreliable. Love can fade away in a single second and then hit you in the chest like a bullet again when you least expect it. It won't save you. It won't pay the bills. You can't eat it or smoke it. You're on the verge of death and it just sits in your chest, hot, heavy and useless. Love is not worth writing about.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-79672229136395690502012-08-12T02:39:00.001-07:002012-08-12T02:39:42.069-07:00Rip yourself open. Sew yourself shut.<i>'Miss Rona says nothing is gross,' Brandy says. 'Miss Rona says the only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.'</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-2688067674071050632012-08-05T05:58:00.003-07:002012-08-05T05:58:37.487-07:00You Were Cool.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><object class="BLOGGER-youtube-video" classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data-thumbnail-src="http://1.gvt0.com/vi/C-suLIA_idE/0.jpg" height="266" width="320"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/C-suLIA_idE&fs=1&source=uds" /><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /><embed width="320" height="266" src="http://www.youtube.com/v/C-suLIA_idE&fs=1&source=uds" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object></div><br /><i>it's good to be young but let's not kid ourselves&nbsp;</i><br /><i>it's better to pass on through those years and come out the other side&nbsp;</i><br /><i>with our hearts still beating&nbsp;</i><br /><i>having stared down demons&nbsp;</i><br /><i>come back breathing&nbsp;</i><br /><br /><i>you deserved better than you got</i><br /><i>someone's got to say it sometime because it's true<br />people should have told you you were awesome&nbsp;</i><br /><i>instead of taking advantage of you&nbsp;</i><br /><i>i hope you love your life now like i love mine&nbsp;</i><br /><i>i hope the painful memories only flex their power over you a little of the time&nbsp;</i><br /><i>we held on to hope of better days coming and when we did we were right&nbsp;</i><br /><i><b>i hope the people who did you wrong have trouble sleeping at night&nbsp;</b></i><br /><br /><i>people were mean to you&nbsp;</i><br /><i>but i always thought you were cool&nbsp;</i><br /><i>clicking down the concrete hallways&nbsp;</i><br /><i>in your spiked heels&nbsp;</i><br /><i>back in high school</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-22719857610345985422012-07-28T22:53:00.001-07:002013-02-18T05:02:38.476-08:00yesterday we were looking for somewhere to sit and it was cold and wet from the rain so we were walking for ages and ages and when we finally found somewhere it felt so wrong and I just want everything to be perfect and right and beautiful for him and I felt like I could never give him that and I was so anxious and I started crying and I was just clinging to him for dear life and he was laughing but it wasn’t mocking it was endearing and then I was laughing and he told me I was amazing and beautiful and he loved me and I can’t believe this is true I won’t let myself but I want to I want to I want to so badly I want to say beautiful words to him and tell him beautiful stories but I couldn’t I would do anything if he asked anything anything anything at all I would cut off all my fingers if it would make him happy I love him I love him I love him I love him I could search the whole galaxy a million times over and never find anyone more perfect for me but outside of my own desires he is still so perfect so perfect he could have any girl he wanted and he wouldn’t even have to try so why why why why why did he choose me he is too good for me he is too good for this world and all I want all I want all I will ever want is to be perfect for himmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-87771889108728322682012-07-28T10:03:00.001-07:002012-08-06T03:32:47.498-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><object class="BLOGGER-youtube-video" classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data-thumbnail-src="http://3.gvt0.com/vi/olpd0Nkn6h8/0.jpg" height="266" width="320"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/olpd0Nkn6h8&fs=1&source=uds" /><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /><embed width="320" height="266" src="http://www.youtube.com/v/olpd0Nkn6h8&fs=1&source=uds" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object></div><br /><i>Slightly bemused by the constant rejection</i><br /><i>Hey you, hey you</i><br /><i>Came to this world by Caesarean section</i><br /><i>Hey you, hey you</i><br /><i>Dreams of a face that is pure perfection</i><br /><i>Hey you, things aren't what they seem.</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-21529368536600169922012-07-28T09:59:00.001-07:002012-07-28T09:59:07.994-07:00<i>carve</i><br /><i>your</i><br /><i>name</i><br /><i>into</i><br /><i>my&nbsp;</i><br /><i>arm</i><br /><i>instead&nbsp;</i><br /><i>of</i><br /><i>stressed</i><br /><i>I</i><br /><i>lie</i><br /><i>here</i><br /><i>c h a r m e d</i><br /><i>'cause</i><br /><i>there's&nbsp;</i><br /><i>n o t h i n g</i><br /><i>else</i><br /><i>to&nbsp;</i><br /><i>do</i><br /><i>every</i><br /><i>me&nbsp;</i><br /><i>and&nbsp;</i><br /><i>every</i><br /><i>you</i>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-34089222690350468162012-07-22T01:40:00.000-07:002012-07-22T01:40:58.455-07:00Like she loved me, when she loved me.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><object width="320" height="266" class="BLOGGER-youtube-video" classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data-thumbnail-src="http://0.gvt0.com/vi/GPBqrkXviRw/0.jpg"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/GPBqrkXviRw&fs=1&source=uds" /><param name="bgcolor" value="#FFFFFF" /><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" /><embed width="320" height="266" src="http://www.youtube.com/v/GPBqrkXviRw&fs=1&source=uds" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true"></embed></object></div>Still fucking soul-destroying, and I've seen this movie more times than I can count.<br />Goddamnit Pixar.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-66836546497665076232012-07-22T01:07:00.000-07:002012-07-22T01:36:54.604-07:00Fight or flight.Suddenly I'm full of all this fear and worry. This isn't out of the ordinary. This is the status quo. The same spot where I always land after being elevated to an indescribable high. Home.<br />I doubt and suspect and overanalyse until I've deconstructed every word that has ever been said to me and I'm surrounded by fragments and syllables, still searching for an answer.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-11327100847545459752012-07-22T00:44:00.001-07:002012-07-22T00:44:21.978-07:00black dog in my chest again<div>I am not your home</div><div>leave me alone</div><div>leave me alone</div><div>leave me alone</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-7562069590495708932012-07-18T05:20:00.001-07:002012-07-18T05:20:04.974-07:00And so on."The most important thing I learned on Tralfamadore was that when a person dies, he only appears to die. He is still very much alive in the past, so it is very silly for people to cry at his funeral. All moments, past, present and future, always have existed, always will exist. The Tralfamadorians can look at all the different moments just the way we can look at a stretch of the Rocky Mountains, for instance. They can see how permanent all the moments are, and they can look at any moment that interests them. It is just an illusion we have here on Earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once a moment is gone it is gone forever. When a Tralfamadorian sees a corpse, all he thinks is that the dead person is in a bad condition in that particular moment, but that the same person is just fine in plenty of other moments. Now, when I myself hear that somebody is dead, I simply shrug and say what the Tralfamadorians say about dead people, which is 'so it goes.'"milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-38007694951213986732012-07-18T05:12:00.003-07:002012-07-19T05:00:08.892-07:00I love the blogosphere, boom de yada.I was talking to Lila today about how unproductive and impersonal a "blogging" platform Tumblr is and I took that as my cue to come back here and make a post. I feel the need to write a bit of an update on where I'm up to right now, mostly for myself to come back to at a later date, but also for my dedicated audience; a grand total of one reader. Hey, man.<br /><br />Looking back on some of my older posts here, I've come to realise just how much I've changed over the past year. I really have grown quite a bit, but subtly and slowly rather than in sporadic spurts.<i> I'm photosynthesising.&nbsp;</i><br />I'm more eager and driven to socialise than I have ever been, and so much more grateful for all the brilliant people in my life. I'm still painfully self-conscious, but I don't feel like a lazy sack of shit anymore. I feel like I've got plenty of things to be proud of. One thing that stands out, quite unexpectedly, is the play. I can't say it wasn't a stressful and terrifying ordeal, but I am so proud of myself for how committed I was without having to force myself, and, in hindsight, I feel like I couldn't have tried any harder. Also, my marks in English have been outstanding so far, which pleases me because I adore writing and my efforts in Literature last year were sub-par, although that class was one of the greatest and most enriching experiences of my life. I've still got a long way to go, but I've come so, so far.&nbsp;<br /><br />I guess my positivity about my current state of affairs all boils down to one thing, and that's the whole being-in-stupid-love-with-a-stupid-boy thing my past self would mock my current self endlessly for. I'm surprised I managed it, actually, because I know exactly what can happen when you trust so much of yourself in another person, and I think that one of the reasons why 2011 was such a good year was because I was completely and utterly&nbsp;single for the vast majority of it which gave me endless hours to myself, but somehow it's happened, and I'm so very glad it has. This time, I'm older and wiser and even though it hurts sometimes, as every kind of love does, every second of searing pain is worth enduring for the hot, bubbly feeling in my chest as my heart turns to treacle. It's foolish, but it's lovely, and I'm not taking a single second of it for granted. I love him more than I'd ever thought possible, and it feels so real.<br /><br />School is over in three months. I couldn't be happier. I know I'll miss the social and ~cultural aspects of secondary student life, but I sure as hell won't miss having my whole life mapped out by the VCAA like I have for the past twelve years. And I know what I want to do next year, which is comforting, although basically every option amounts to "anything but this". I just can't wait to be free! <br /><span style="background-color: white;"><i>"I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me."</i></span>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-7300368151818872902012-06-13T01:41:00.000-07:002012-06-13T01:43:44.572-07:00I like this blog.<i>I like breathing through it.</i><br /><br />It feels very personal, though. It's a far more productive outlet than my Tumblr is.<br /><br />I've been missing last year like hell, particularly the end - October to December. My favourite time of year. I miss the weightlessness the summer holidays brings. I miss the long days. I miss Literature classes. I miss Year Eleven. I miss playing Ace Attorney until five in the morning. I miss the day the VCAA results came out - 16th of December? - that day when Lila, Leon and I got breakfast by the river and I got very very sunburnt. I miss Dromana. I miss being able to see him every Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. I miss taking the bus to Williamstown and listening to Placebo. I miss the day of the art exam - when I went to the beach with Clara, and we saw We Need To Talk About Kevin, then we sat in the park until eight, just talking, and I walked home from Yarraville in my tiny little chiffon skirt and my beach hair. 2011 was the best year of my life so far, without a doubt.<br /><br />I hate Year Twelve.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-88472257013217073872012-05-10T02:36:00.001-07:002012-05-10T02:36:19.152-07:00A Girl Named CathyIt's not something I can just explain away with words. Please don't ask me to explain. This is not verbal. This is tactile. This is the panicky feeling in your chest when someone you have always admired, someone completely out of your reach, tells you they think you're amazing. This is deliberating for ten minutes before you send your reply because you don't want to prove them wrong, no matter how wrong you think they are. This is 12:30 on a Wednesday night. This is heavy eyelids and sweaty palms and a dry mouth and lips on the back of your neck, a hand on your thigh. This is the feeling of being alone with you in a room full of people. And you are so real. So very tangible. This is the very, very last thing I would have ever expected to happen. But it happened. And I don't want it to go away. Ever.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-8324084915821671312011-08-06T06:48:00.000-07:002011-08-06T07:19:07.191-07:00blogspot rules, tumblr drools.Things have been pretty okay lately. I went to Fiji a few weeks ago, which was fantastic. I felt renewed the second the plane hit the tarmac. That was the moment I touched foreign land, for the first time in my precious little life. Not even Ethan's obnoxious cries of "Nah, Dude, airports are international territory" could snap me out of the giddy, dizzy, excitable mindset I was in. I stepped off the plane and eagerly crossed the walkway as the sun rose defiantly above the mountains and the warm breeze whistled throughout the group. Breathing new air, sweating like a pig in a whole new climate. Bliss.<br />Now I am home again, and I am so far fucking behind in my schoolwork, I am a bit ill and I have absolutely no motivation to even attempt to catch up. But it's okay. <br />I feel as though I'm currently in a phase of rebirth. My tastes have changed, my attitude has changed, yet I remain the same. Maybe, in a few weeks, I will rise from the ashes, and I will finally be the person I feel I should be.<br />I feel quite present, though, which is a nice change from the painfully nostalgic mindset I have been trapped in for years. <br />2011 has been treating me well.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-4556136351786318112011-06-06T01:25:00.001-07:002011-06-06T01:26:32.563-07:00Recent events have made me realise just how much I fucking love my best friends.<br />I don't want us to fall apart. <br />I will fight for them, even if they don't want me to.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-50373447112766330402011-06-05T06:01:00.000-07:002011-06-05T06:03:49.450-07:00Well, fuck. My heart is in my throat. I want to tear myself apart.<br />I don't know why I bother with anybody.<br />I don't know what is wrong with me.<br />I don't want to wallow in my own self pity<br />I feel tiny and pathetic.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-19197602629088640142011-06-02T05:48:00.000-07:002011-06-02T06:44:47.649-07:00Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now?<br />Of course there is, unfortunately every single one of them is unobtainable in one way or another<br /><br />Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?<br />I AM NOT MUTE THEREFORE I AM CAPABLE OF 'TALKING' TO ABSOLUTELY ANYBODY IN THE WORLD. I wish I could say the same about kissing.<br /><br />What’s on your mind right now?<br />Kissing. Goddammit.<br /><br />Do you like books?<br />I love books.<br /><br />Do you think anyone has feelings for you?<br />I have no idea. It would be nice if nobody did because it is easier but if someone does there is a higher chance of that kissing thing happening GODDAMMIT<br /><br />Do you feel accomplished?<br />Sure, why not<br /><br />How late did you stay up last night?<br />I dunno<br /><br />Have you ever cried so much you threw up?<br />Probably. I am one of those throwy-up people.<br /><br />Would you rather be mad or sad?<br />I AM ALWAYS MAD<br /><br />Were you happy when you woke up today?<br />Most likely not, waking up is not much fun<br /><br />What does your hair look like right now?<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Hairy.</span> Le scoff.<br /><br />Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone?<br />...GODDAMMIT<br /><br />Honestly, if you could go back one month and change something would you?<br />No, what would be the point of that?<br /><br />What are you supposed to be doing right now?<br />Nothing in particular..<br /><br />Is tomorrow gonna be a good day?<br />I don't know what's going to happen yet!<br /><br />Do you know what time it was when your last kiss took place?<br />CAN YOU NOT, QUIZ?<br />I don't remember. I am a kiss-ey slut.<br /><br />You kissed someone last night, didn’t you?<br />NO<br /><br />Do you secretly like someone?<br /><strike>Katherine Parkinson</strike> WHAT<br />loljk that is a horribly kept secret<br /><br />Is something wrong with you right now?<br />*does scissor-y thing*<br /><br />What are you listening to?<br />Soul Meets Body - Deaf Cab 4 Cooties<br /><br />Tomorrow is?<br />FRIDAY FRIDAY GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY<br /><br />What were you doing at 12:00am last night?<br />Being blissfully asleep<br /><br />Do you like anyone right now?<br />DIDN'T I ALREADY ANSWER THIS? I don't like anybody <strike>who is obtainable</strike>, no.<br /><br />Miss anyone right now?<br />Probably.<br /><br />Do you want to be in a relationship right now?<br />Not sure. It would be nice, but I don't at all mind being single.<br /><br />Does anyone know your password besides you?<br />Yes.<br /><br />Who do you have feelings for?<br />Everyone in the world who has never authored an extremely redundant MySpace survey <br /><br />Do you want to talk to someone right now?<br />No<br /><br />Would you rather sing or dance in front of 100,000 people?<br />Sing.<br /><br />Do you currently like someone who doesn’t know you exist?<br />Op.<br /><br />Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?<br />No.<br /><br />Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?<br />Yes.<br /><br />Have you ever liked someone who treated you like shit?<br />Nope.<br /><br />What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?<br />Tea.<br /><br />Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?<br />Hasn't everyone? Also the 'word' 'gotten' annoys me a lot.<br /><br />Plans for tomorrow?<br />School, Trivia Night with REAL LIVE OLD PEOPLE, sleeping.<br /><br />Do you like hugs or do you freak out when people hug you?<br />I love hugs lots and lots.<br /><br />Do you laugh a lot?<br />At everything.<br /><br />Do you like to hold hands?<br />Yes. I am also a hand hold-ey slut.<br /><br />What do you miss most about your past?<br />I 'unno.<br /><br />Why aren’t you going out with the person you like?<br />THE REASONS ARE ENDLESS<br /><br />Did you like anyone this month?<br />fuck off<br /><br />If the person you liked, rang up their ex, you do?<br />In the words of the wonderful Maison, 'some guys'.<br /><br />Is there someone you want a hug from?<br />Snoop Dogg<br /><br />I bet you’re thinking of someone?<br />Snoop Dogg<br /><br />Do you like it when a guy takes you by surprise and grabs your hand?<br />Sure, as long as it is a platonic thing<br /><br />Do you have siblings over the age of 21?<br />No<br /><br />Do you think people talk about you? <br />Sure they do, but I rarely think about it.<br /><br />Does anyone love you?<br />Yes<br /><br />Want to be taller or shorter?<br />Neither<br /><br />What did you do last night?<br />Some guys<br /><br />Do you ever leave the house without make-up?<br />Yes, frequently<br /><br />Where would you move, if you could move anywhere right now?<br />I WOULDN'T<br /><br />When is the last time you talked to your biological father?<br />Just before<br /><br />Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?<br />NO YOU BASTARDY CUNT<br /><br />Who’s bed were you on last?<br />mine<br /><br />Do you like to cuddle?<br />ugh<br /><br />The person you like(d), ever made you feel like complete shit?<br />YOU HAVE ALREADY ASKED ME THIS<br /><br />Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?<br />why not<br /><br />Are you excited for anything?<br />Fiji!<br /><br />Who were you with last night?<br />Me<br /><br />Who was the last person you shared a cigarette with?<br />Lila<br /><br />Do you ever think about the past?<br />Duh<br /><br />Last night you felt?<br />Fine, nervous, like burning myself alive, not too bad, then fine<br /><br />Do you have any plans Friday?<br />Tomorrow is friday and i have already mentioned my plans for tomorrow<br /><br />What’s your favorite thing to do when you’re bored?<br />masturbate furiously<br /><br />Who was the last person to lay in bed with you?<br />me<br /><br />Do you want to see somebody right now?<br />no<br /><br />Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math?<br />I am more likely to fail Maths than any other subject in the world<br /><br />Has the last person you texted ever seen you cry?<br />Lila, yes she has<br /><br />Are you a forgiving person?<br />no<br /><br />What are you listening to?<br />led zeppelin <br /><br />Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?<br />no<br /><br />Where’s the last place you went besides your house?<br />highpoint<br /><br />Last people you rode in a car with?<br />mum<br /><br />Are you nice to everyone?<br />LOL NO<br /><br />What’s on your mind right now?<br />Snoop Dogg<br /><br />What are you doing right now?<br />this survey<br /><br />Are you jealous of someone right now?<br />no<br /><br />Has the person you like, told you they liked you back?<br />lolz<br /><br />When you’re bored in class, what do you usually do?<br />masturbate furiously<br /><br />How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?<br />I dunno<br /><br />Why did you take the last pill you took?<br />i have a cold<br /><br />Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?<br />yes<br /><br />Who do you have texts from in your inbox?<br />fuck off<br /><br />Does it bother you when someone lies to you?<br />oh my god of course it does show me a human being alive who enjoys being told lies and i will eat my hat<br /><br />Meet anyone new this year?<br />yes<br /><br />Have you ever tripped while walking up the stairs?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?<br />no<br /><br />What’s been upsetting you lately?<br />no<br /><br />Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do?<br />yes<br /><br />Miss anyone right now?<br />no<br /><br />Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?<br />yes<br /><br />What are you doing tonight?<br />this really shit survey that I have given up on and can't be bothered answering with proper grammar but I feel as if I have to complete it for the greater good<br /><br />First thing that pops in your head when you think of this past summer?<br />gorillaz and having bright red hair<br /><br />Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love?<br />yes<br /><br />Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?<br />no fuck off<br /><br />If someone liked you, how would you want them to tell you?<br />however they see fit<br /><br />Do you still talk to the last person you fell for?<br />no lol they are boring<br /><br />Where do you wish you were right now?<br />snoop godd THAT IS TOO GOOD A TYPO TO CORRECT<br /><br />Is there a person of the opposite gender on your mind?<br />snoop dogg<br /><br />If you could go back in time and change something, would you?<br />nah<br /><br />Would you rather get walked away from and left alone or treated like shit and played around with?<br />neither<br /><br />Is it easy for you to talk to people of the opposite sex? <br />yes<br /><br />Do you think more about the past, present, or future?<br />past<br /><br />Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you to?<br />yes<br /><br />This time last year, can you remember who you liked?<br />nobody<br /><br />Do you like Turtles?<br />kill yourself<br /><br />Has a boy/girl ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend for you?<br />not that I am aware of<br /><br />When’s the last time you had a late night phone conversation?<br />don't know<br /><br />Do you honestly believe that good things happen to those who wait?<br />no<br /><br />Your best friend has sex with your ex, what do you say?<br />I have more than one ex and I would not give the slightest fuck if any of my best friends had sex with any of them <br /><br />Who starts the conversation, guy or girl?<br />fuck off<br /><br />Will you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend in 6 months?<br />how am I supposed to know that<br /><br />Who are you gonna be with Saturday?<br />family friends me<br /><br />Was the first person you talked to today male or female?<br />female<br /><br />Where did you get your last bruise from?<br />furious masturbation <br /><br />Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?<br />no<br /><br />You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?<br />o well<br /><br />Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2010?<br />IN THE BACK OF A UTE<br /><br />How many hours of sleep did you get last night?<br />200<br /><br />Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you right now?<br />i dunno who that is<br />but probably<br />if it is the person i am thinking of<br /><br />Last awkward moment?<br />every moment ever<br /><br />The person you have strongest feelings for died, are you upset?<br />sure<br /><br />How many windows are open on your computer right now?<br />one<br /><br />Do any of your friends dislike each other?<br />yep<br /><br />Were you single on your last birthday?<br />yes<br /><br />Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nickname?<br />don't care<br /><br />Do you get distracted easily?<br />lol yes<br /><br />How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?<br />lots<br /><br />Is it okay to like someone else when you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend?<br />depends who<br /><br />Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?<br />no<br /><br />What is something you disliked about your day?<br />nothing really<br /><br />Do you think Ke$ha is annoying?<br />I HATE HER WITH A BURNING PASSION THAT IS USUALLY RESERVED FOR MORE IMPORTANT THINGS<br /><br />Did you have a good childhood?<br />yes<br /><br />What bothers you more, when people lie or when people complain?<br />who cares<br /><br />Who was the last person who texted you?<br />lila<br /><br />I bet you’re going to kiss someone tomorrow, right?<br />FUCK OFF<br /><br />Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?<br />yes<br /><br />Are you wasting your time on someone?<br />no<br /><br />Are all guys players and cheaters?<br />no<br /><br />What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?<br />grurple<br /><br />Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?<br />no<br /><br />How’s 2011 been for you?<br />fine<br /><br />Where were you last night at 11 PM?<br />home<br /><br />How often do you buy new makeup?<br />never<br /><br />Can you curse around your parents?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you believe in love at first sight?<br />no<br /><br />Is there a person in your life that you know you’ll never forget?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in ten years?<br />yes<br /><br />Have you ever been called beautiful?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you think anyone has feelings for you?<br />I DON'T KNOW YAY THIS IS OVERmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-52305321617986385792011-06-01T05:18:00.001-07:002011-06-01T05:20:08.513-07:00I just realised I am a contributer to the drama blog Emily made, which means she and everyone else in my class can see my blog.<br />Which contains what is almost slash written about the musical.<br />OPOPOPOPOPOPOPmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-85391552461434575262011-05-31T03:24:00.000-07:002011-05-31T03:25:06.823-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lm0pkhDttU1qiggm3o1_500.gif"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 258px;" src="http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lm0pkhDttU1qiggm3o1_500.gif" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />GPOY all da tymmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-33609731761569266232011-05-31T03:07:00.000-07:002011-05-31T03:08:38.541-07:00Will moaned as Witchmouth's kransky blew a load of creamy music deep into his walkmanmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-54949952270981006972011-05-31T02:52:00.000-07:002011-05-31T02:55:41.291-07:00I just did my photography work, AND I put ACTUAL EFFORT into it. Be proud of me! <br /><br />..who am I talking to? I have no readers.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-37472113855044344312011-05-29T05:16:00.000-07:002011-05-29T05:19:46.560-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_llsinanWPs1qha84jo1_500.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 373px;" src="http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_llsinanWPs1qha84jo1_500.png" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />I have this thought twenty times a day.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-67376174214662644952011-05-29T03:45:00.000-07:002011-05-29T03:47:36.899-07:00>Browsing themes for Chrome<br />>Theme catches my eye<br />>Think; 'What a boring and ugly theme"<br />>"American Apparel Theme"<br />>Go figuremilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-40389611598809561692011-05-29T03:34:00.001-07:002011-05-29T03:38:29.261-07:00Much less melancholy tonight, still haven't started ANY homework. OOPSIE.<br />I'll get right on my literature task tomorrow night. Hopefully my usual bullshit will suffice.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-2529429808699890312011-05-28T07:32:00.000-07:002011-05-28T08:09:19.713-07:00Gone.<span style="font-style:italic;">"Gone, but never forgotten."</span><br />I fold up the newspaper with a heavy sigh, and take another drag of my cigarette.<br />Inhale, exhale.<br />I watch the smoke disperse, creating a wall between me and the rest of my lounge room, which disappears seconds later.<br />And I wish, with all my might, that I really could build a wall between me and the rest of the world.<br />A real wall, not a metaphorical wall. Real, unlike the one that separates me from Her.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">"Look, but don't touch"</span><br />I wouldn't dare touch her. I promise. My razorblade fingertips would scar her soft, snow white skin.<br />No, no, I won't let myself touch her. <br />But god, do I want to. To touch her would not be enough. I want to feel her, embrace her, consume her.<br />I want to belong to her. I want to be her.<br />But I know that this obsession is simply not an option, because boys like me do not fall hopelessly in love with girls like her. We are not allowed to be so foolish. <br />But a fool I am, and a fool is what I always will be.<br />I put my cigarette out on the arm of the couch and close my eyes.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-41512136466608525742011-05-28T00:24:00.001-07:002011-05-28T00:24:39.847-07:00WHY ARE YOU SENDING ME EMAILS URBAN OUTFITTERS I HATE YOUmilly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-28537296118640984592011-05-28T00:17:00.001-07:002011-05-28T00:18:18.282-07:00I can never escape the thought that people are only nice to me because they feel that they have to be.<br />But they don't have to be. <br />I wouldn't want to be my friend either.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-80462229422723471422011-05-27T07:37:00.001-07:002011-05-27T07:43:15.143-07:00Becoming a Hermit Part Thirty-Five Million.I can't be bothered making an effort with anybody anymore.<br />I don't care if I live or die, but I care about my exam results.<br />Who were you imagining with you in those daydreams? It was certainly not me.<br />Do you do everything with them on your mind?<br />You are the reason why she wakes up in the morning and drifts off to sleep come the night.<br />I have not the slightest bit of influence on anybody.<br />I am a defective human being, doomed to fade into obscurity.<br />I am trapped forever inside my own identity.<br />I am empty, I am rotten.<br />I am disintegrating.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-34400946094940711132011-05-27T06:31:00.000-07:002011-05-27T23:54:14.585-07:00Rat in a cage.The whole 'goss' page thing is ridiculous.<div>Why are we all so concerned with other people's lives? </div><div>We make a point of knowing everything about everyone.</div><div>It's idiotic.</div><div>No. </div><div>I am a walking contradiction.</div><div>I want to know everybody inside out.</div><div><meta charset="utf-8">If this page contained nothing but the innermost thoughts of the people I know well, I would be refreshing it every ten seconds.</div><div>I want to know what makes you smile, what makes you cry.</div><div>I want to know what possesses you to fall for <i>him, </i>to want to be like <i>her.</i></div><div>I want to touch the life of every single person I meet.</div><div>But probably not for the same reason the posters on these pages do. </div><div> <br /></div><div> <br /></div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-24810776686118278582011-05-27T05:46:00.001-07:002011-05-27T05:46:33.228-07:00Can't be bothered being sober.<div><br /></div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-90120044671325648312011-05-27T02:33:00.000-07:002011-05-27T05:14:56.024-07:00<div>Why is the entire world obsessed by being romantically involved with somebody?</div><div>It's ridiculous.</div><div>Can't we all just live for ourselves?</div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-59474494891337756132011-05-26T05:47:00.000-07:002011-05-26T05:53:25.841-07:00Moving to Blogspot,Tumblr is awful.<div>I am in the process of quitting every single aspect of my life.</div><div>I need to rise from my own ashes and become someone I admire.</div><div>I need to try harder in school, and I need to distance myself from the internet from time to time.</div><div>I need to have faith in myself.</div><div>I need to have faith in the people around me.</div><div>Strangely, the latter seems as if it will be more difficult.</div><div><br /><i>"Or should I just get along with myself? I never did get along with everybody else."</i></div>milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8770763756375151025.post-65072117658470210172011-03-19T01:17:00.000-07:002011-03-19T01:21:23.644-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://images.fanpop.com/images/image_uploads/P-ATD-panic-21-at-the-disco-194286_500_680.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 680px;" src="http://images.fanpop.com/images/image_uploads/P-ATD-panic-21-at-the-disco-194286_500_680.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />I cannot even begin to explain.<br />2006 'til forever.milly.http://www.blogger.com/profile/14292575445010706856noreply@blogger.com0